So many weird little facets about ourselves. We all have little things that we do, things that bring us a comfort or a safety that we need. Some of us aware of what they are and where they come from and some of us not so much. Silly things that either bring us shame or …
I wouldn't say that I ever have writer's block. Well, I guess it depends on the actual definition. Sometimes I cannot figure out what I want to write about but that doesn't mean there are not things for me to write about. It just means I am unsure of how I am feeling and where …
It's unfortunate that the scarf I have weaved into the fashion statements of most of my outfits has grown cold. A scarf that used to hug me gently is now more like a knife in my back. A pain that won't ever be healed. The pain of betrayal. I couldn't believe it when I was …
You can finally say you've seen it all now. You are staring right smack at a blog article written about blogging. I am blogging about blogging. I guess my creativity has gone out the window eh? Well. So be it. I don't come up with our topics I just write them. If you want to …
My job is difficult. I know everyone has a difficult job, there are difficult things about EVERY job. I get it. There are, however, many emotional difficulties that come from jobs that involve humans in difficult and traumatic situations on a daily basis. This encompasses many career choices such as EMT's, Shelter Workers, Nurses, Social …
Music is perhaps one of the fastest and scariest vehicles to a place filled with emotions we may not know, understand or be able to process on our own. It's where I find myself at times and at times I have to turn the music off. How can something so harmless feel so threatening? Each …
I don't have insomnia but I didn't know what I should title a post that is just about how I can only sleep for 4 hours straight and then wake with an anxiety that could fuel a freight train. So everyday I begin at somewhere around midnight and I guess that's just the way it's …
I was recently inspired to start blogging again (lucky you), after watching a Netflix documentary on the Cecil Hotel. The Cecil Hotel is near the skid row area of L.A. It was known for it's negative energy and bad things happening with no explanation. A hotel that had once housed a serial killer and other …
I won't ever get justice for all of the times I have been treated poorly by Kaiser Permanente but I will celebrate the small wins because that is just the positive person I am. (Giant laughing emoji) One gloomy night a few weeks ago I noticed my phone was alive with an incoming call from …
Journals and diaries have been my sacred land since I was a child. Well, since around 8 or 9 years old. Even at such a young age I think part of me understood that without proper documentation of each day's happenings I wasn't sure I would know what was real and what wasn't. Maybe I …
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